Lonely...

I saw a quote that said... fall in love when your heart is ready not when you're lonely. I think that is the honest to god truth is that I am desperately lonely. I cling to David for some source of comfort and hope that i can be the one to change his mind... the truth is though that he's still in love with Christine and that he always will be. She has some trance on him and she has a piece of his heart and he never got closer from her and i don't think he has room for me right now. I'm a crutch for him, a convience thing, just an option and i deserve so much more then that... it's time to let go... i need to let myself let go. I'm not going to text him or call him. If it goes more then a week without talking then i need to completely let go. Delete his number, block him from facebook, and move on till i can at least have some time to get over him... i need time to heal. Plan in action.

All my love,
Shenanigans



We run back to each other when it’s convenient. We know that in the end, we’re meant for each other but not for right now. So we play these games, act like we’re okay when one of us has someone else. When in reality it tears us apart to know that we can be happy with someone else. But it’s that slight hope that we will end up together that always keeps us running back for more.